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January 5th, 2022

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  A king . I want a king . I want a man, not a boy . I want a battle scarred warrior. Someone able to fight alongside me - not against me , not behind me , and definitely n ot before me . I want a King . A boy who earned through battle and war and loss and joy and the harsh truths of life, and his right to be called a King. I know some amazing men . I know some hungry boys. But the one I'm looking for isn't interested in ruling over me. He only wants to rule beside me. A merging of two solid kingdoms, won by the wars he has overcome in his life, just as I have overcome and am still overcoming the battles of mine. I was once a beggar, b ut now, I am a Queen. I will rule my kingdom that I have been given, and if the throne to my side stays empty while I battle the rest of my way home; then that's what was meant for me and w hat wise Queen would fight  against her own destiny? Besides, who knows, if you were not born- "for such a time as this?" I am confident yes, an...

January 3rd- 4th, 2022

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January 3rd, 2022 Some say I am the way I am because of past emotional trauma, some will say I'm flat out toxic. But I choose to call it my human nature. This is my journey into my true ugly, beautiful soul.  "Seek Me and you shall find me, when you search for me with all your heart."  I don't think people understand how determined I am. Because, I get it. Oh Lord how I get it. I know what Paul meant, and I understand what he meant, when he said keep pressing toward the mark.  "All of us, then, who are mature should take such a view of things. And if on some point you think differently, that too God will make clear to you." (Phil. 3:15) I understand more then I hoped or thought I would. I understand now that knowledge without understanding is useless; but knowledge with understanding produces wisdom..  We live on a magical, supernatural spinning ball of earth. But we gotta ask ourselves, "How many times we gonna go round this mountain again?" I don...